screwed up

Hi to 12th June 2013.
I don't feel good.
Indeed, very bad.
After so long I've been fighting for...
never think of giving up and standing strong still until yesterday...
i ask myself... does it all worth it?
Yes... it's worthy but can i still standing strong like how i used to be?
i am not sure.

it's been 3 months since i last updated my blog.
Well, this is good in a way as i only come here when i'm seriously upset.
i don't know why things must get so complicated.
when we are almost good and fit in everything then suddenly *pop* this small little tiny issue occurred and ruined everything.
i am so pissed off and upset.

14.12.12

2 days right after the so called- memorable 12.12.12.
Again, I'm not feeling good today.
I don't know why thing ended up like this.
So sudden and i guess no one knows why.
Is it my problem or you just not that neat enough to realise all these.
Seriously, I feel so abandoned and being ignored last night.
I don't know.
By looking at everyone surrounding me,
no matter how their partner will still constantly going back to their another half to check and make sure he/she is ok.
but... i got abandoned aside and no one come to me.
When finally WJ and M talked to me i feel so saved.
However, in return i got this statement from u saying 'we might don't have so many thing to talk about but when u're with your cantonese friend you have so much to talk'.
I seriously don't get what does this bullshit mean.
and, it pissed me off.
Fine...I will be fine.

Awful

am feeling so awful right now...
I don't like argument, at all...
I always tried my best to stop any possible argument if I can...
the feeling is awful when your words hurt someone you love the most...

2 years 2 weeks & 3 days...
am actually looking forward to 30, 40 & 50 years...

Company Politic

Kindly refer above attached for my current feeling.

W-H-YYYYYYYYYY????

When I first got my job in Standard Chartered Bank,

I don't feel any politic going on although I'm only working there for a year.

After that I joined IBM.

Such a big big international company and their staffs is like few thousands of them.

In IBM, I learnt to defined COMPANY POLITIC.

But, for a huge company like this I don't surprise there is politic going on in there. 

My policy is... you don't touch on me then I will stand aside. 

Basically, my 18 months life in IBM considered PEACEFUL.

Until I joined my Father company.

A place where you can see craps, gossips & dramas every day.

Different kind of issues and with different people involved.

Staff join & leave like a monthly routine.

I had a deep thought on that and try my best to figuring out what's wrong!

Is it because of the workload? 

Is it because of the management?

OR

Is it because of the people itself?

I've seen through every single of their drama & gossip like SERIOUSLY!

The major reason to causing all these is ---> the MANAGER.

Oh well, 

I do not know what's wrong with the manager as I am a standalone party + 太子女...

No matter how everyone still have to 'give face' to me.

But, what I trying to point out here is...

YES!

sometime the manager might sounds too bitchy to us,

but throwing letter or saying bad words behind is not the cool way to solve the problem.

If you have any dissatisfaction why not have a discussion with the Manager?

Most of us will thinks that..."cheh...useless one la...you think he/ she will listen to you?"

But, you never try, you never know.

And, seriously...

our Manager is still considered OK compare with IBM lor!!!

Our manager is in Novice Level only. (you will know what does Novice mean if you play Ragnarok)

Phew~

I am not saying who's right, who's wrong.

So long you think you're right and you can prove to the Manager then I am sure you can definitely shut his/ her mouth up without using your mouth to have some back-end attack at his/ her back.

PEACE.

counting down 2 more days until the actual day of my birth date...
29-09-1987
a combination of number that i loved the most in this world...
and I'm feeling grateful and blissful throughout these 25 years as I always have my Family & Friends around to celebrate with me...
The funniest thing is...the headcount getting more and more by each year!
who said we hardly met true friends after High School!
Somehow I am lucky enough to met a few more during my University time!
All of them is AWESOME SHIT...
can't denied my life would sucks without them...like seriously and I am not joking.
The life without them is like no FUN at all...
Too bad that I can't have any celebration on my actual day although it falls on a Saturday cause I will have to accompany my dad to attend a wedding dinner.
But, it doesn't really matter to me as I already have 3 rounds celebration before my actual date! and there is 4/ 5 more queueing up! ^___________^
What can i complaint anymore?
I shall thank GOD for giving me so many wonderful Friends and the best Parents & Siblings in the world!
Not to forget, my cute little fellow bebe and my BABY BOY.
Too bad i got no time to have a proper celebration or dinner with my boy and we can only manage to have birthday lunch instead of a dinner.
O.O how sad is that~ keke... but no big deal as most of the past celebration or upcoming celebration he will definitely be there with me so its like we celebrating every day too!

Well, enough said.
Till then~~~~

Hmm......
It's our birthday celebration ...
I'm your sister...
She is your best friend...
But she is the one who got the dessert from you...
And I'm not...
I don't jealous but I just don't know why...