18-09-2010

a day to remember~

:)

i'm no longer alone.

dilemma...

i wish you can come in front of me and hold my hands tight.






p/s: am hanging myself middle of no where~

uhm...
guess it's time to back in action,
after so long...


used to rely on this place so much,
used to forcing myself not to share and talk,
so,
here's the only place i can dump everything.
used to be in my own comfort zone for quite some times.
used to be so pessimistic.
used to be not believe in ANY thing...ANYmore.


but i guess we do learn from mistakes. aren't we?
we should always thanks the one who hurt you.
because without 'em you will never learn,
they were the one who make u grow stronger,
they are the one who teach u a lesson,
remind you not to be so naive and silly.


we used to assumed we've found "the right one" and we always think that...
THE ONE IS SO DAMN PERFECT, NO ONE WOULD BE PERFECT THAN HIM/HER.
BUT,
NO! They are just like another fucking piece from the SOB category.


you learn from your fall.
i thought i will never stand up again by myself,
bet am always looked down upon my capabilities.
indeed, im stronger than anyone else out there.


it's not about forgive or forget anymore...
it's about let go and move on!


and, im actually typing this with a smiling face.
=)

now i realise...i finally got the guts to open your FB page with a smiley face.

i think i had get rid over it...FINALLY~ =)

=)

you made my day~!

I miss you like crazy

27.08.2008

you left me without saying Goodbye.
my heart is aching...
i couldn't think,
i couldn't breath,
i couldn't talk,
right at the moment!


I came back to you, immediately.
im actually feeling hesitant to step into the house...
my leg is shaking and i couldn't move single step of it...
when i look into the house...i see your beautiful picture at the center of the entrance...
as i walked further in and stand right beside you...
im pissed,
im mad...because i couldn't touch you.
the cover is like a firewall blocking in between US.
i can't stop my tears...
i have got so much to share with you...
i have not show you my Certificate...
i have not tell you my oversea stories...
there is so much i have not tell you...

i know you were relieve...
i know you were in peace...
i know you know that im there...talking to you...

2 years from the day you left me...
and i miss you so much...

*Lord...please do hear my prayer...* :(