I miss you like crazy

27.08.2008

you left me without saying Goodbye.
my heart is aching...
i couldn't think,
i couldn't breath,
i couldn't talk,
right at the moment!


I came back to you, immediately.
im actually feeling hesitant to step into the house...
my leg is shaking and i couldn't move single step of it...
when i look into the house...i see your beautiful picture at the center of the entrance...
as i walked further in and stand right beside you...
im pissed,
im mad...because i couldn't touch you.
the cover is like a firewall blocking in between US.
i can't stop my tears...
i have got so much to share with you...
i have not show you my Certificate...
i have not tell you my oversea stories...
there is so much i have not tell you...

i know you were relieve...
i know you were in peace...
i know you know that im there...talking to you...

2 years from the day you left me...
and i miss you so much...

*Lord...please do hear my prayer...* :(

18.07.10

sending u off at KLIA

feeling so unwilling to part

but, still i have to let go my hand & let you go.

it's the time, i told myself.

to let my little over-pampered princess to get out of our protection circle.

learn to be more independent and tough.

i know she will not disappoint me!

i can assure that! because she is my "hey soul sista".

we've just separated for 3 hours plus but im already miss you like KRAZY!!

:(

i miss you so much...Qooi.

am i sad?

i think i am sad.

:(

was taking a day off today.

initially was because of i've got this aptitude test with IBM,

and im actually taking MC instead of AL, so in the end i would have to go for doctor.

LOL!

anyhow, in the end the doctor actually ask me to go for this consultant Neurologist for a proper check-up.

oh well, i have got so many check-up awaiting for me.

the eye and now this > Neurologist.

btw,

passed the test and i actually went for the 1st and 2nd interview already.

basically i did the test and attended both interviews in 1 day.

what am have to do now is wait for their news patiently.

=/

hmm...got no idea there is how high the chances i would get,

but, atleast i have tried my best.

brother actually dont understand why am i never stop job hunting.

indeed, i would like to stop if i can really get something that i really want,

but till now, sadly to say that there is none of it can meets my expectation.

human tends to be greedy, we always look for something better...isnt it?

phew...is dead tired now!

shall knock off and have a good rest.

deleted

i realize i could actually put it down.
i realize i could even live better without you.
and you've completely deleted from my memories, NOW.
=)

you did it once = silly,
you did it twice = stupid...
never ever go for the third and forth times...it will equal to HURT.

31.12.2009
a day to remember.
i always remind myself that i will only allow to do that for ONCE.
let bygones be bygones...
i should ink this statement inside my brain,
so that it will stay forever there to keeps me remind.