S: does F-O-R-E-V-E-R means FOR EVER?
H: In my dictionary, F-O-R-E-V-E-R means FOR EVER and I will take care of you FOREVER no matter what.


I used to hate promises because life is always being so UNPREDICTABLE.
BUT, he makes me believe on it, blindly.


for those awful memories,
the tears that flooded my bed sheet...


I was trying my best to buried it deep down and leaving it untouched forever.
I wish that i can forget bout the past,and everything.
but the memories are too beautiful to destroy it.

Whenever i decided to move on, something happened that holds me back.
But whenever i’m ready to commit and give us another chance to try,
he’ll just turn me off and ask me to wait.
the consequences for believing blindly & waiting like a silly is seeing him being happily together with the others.

there is a sentence where i truly agree with...
"Sometimes you might seem strong for keep holding on,but it really takes much more strength to just let it go and move on.I might sound agressive at times,looking tough and strong like nothing in this world worries me much..If i could lift it up,i could put it down."

understand, forgive and forget.

the end of 2009

31122009

am suppose this will be a great year for me,
at least, better than 2008
but, it doesn't.


both beginning and end of the year 2009 was ruined.
during the start, i forced myself to stand up,
as there is 10 more months to end 2009,
then,
a beautiful nightmare,
The beginning of Nov, i finally woke up from the dream.
flashing back the memories, laughing at myself.


no.
no one is wrong here.
but,
when you said you can't force everyone to accept,
in fact, you are FORCING ME to accept.


uhm...
things changed, it ain't simple as last time anymore.
no one can tell me what's so hard in it?
and i cannot see any also.
maybe my eye got problem, in fact, my eye really got problem
so, don't blame me, i got EXCUSE also.
:)



For Jason Bear,
although both of us got played,
yet, we have to be thankful that we are still survive,
its alright Bear Bear, you can lean on my shoulder.
i believe we will grow stronger.
:)
p/s: Lydia Tan, pls stop stalking on me...im not saying you.



To You, (you know who you are)
don't feel sorry to me,
and thanks for telling me the truth,
it may hurts, but it works.
i can finally wake myself up.
and you are not the one who should apology.


Goodbye 2009,
Goodbye the Hidden Secret...
Goodbye everyone...


:D

p/s: never ever find excuse to cover your LIEs, you are just lying to yourself. (Richard Low, 2009)

depression kills...

Thanks Jason Bear,

but am not strong enough,
Goodbye.

it is always say easier than do.

do not make promise to others
when you have no confident to make it comes true.

Monday night

had a quick catch up with Rich last night
:)
we talked, we discussed and we gossiped.
he can be a real good listener,
as he is so different with the others,
he is LAME.


he once told me,
just take whatever peoples say as an advice,
but, the most important thing is to Follow your heart.


what you really wants,
what you really needs,
what you really want to do,
basically is all inside your heart already.

so,
why not just follow your heart?

:(

seems like i couldn't take it still...
:(

Merry Christmas

i actually don't like people greet me "Merry X'mas" instead of "Merry Christmas".
What is "Xmas" wei? I don't get it.
it suppose to be CHRISTMAS, it is Jesus Christ birthday.
stop greeting me by using "Xmas".


peoples seem do not understand what's the true meaning of Christmas.
Jesus was born on this special day,
as our lovely God Father sent his only child to the world,
to experience our normal human life, spread his gospel.
in order to save all of us, he actually sacrifice himself.
therefore,
Christmas always been a special event for me and my family.


i went to the Christmas eve mass last night,
and i can truly feel that everyone of us is feeling excited,
excited about Jesus Christ birthday but not Holiday,
everyone feel blessed and joy on this special day.
when all of us singing for the song, listening to the Gospel, during the preparation of gift,
i can felt that Jesus Christ was actually there, with us.


:)
Glad to have Jesus Christ in my heart all the time,
as he always shower me with all his love and peace.
- God Bless -