It's not what I feel about him, it's what I don't feel for anybody else

* Seven *

♡ Happy 7th month ♡

Baby,

I just want you to know,

my love to you is getting deeper day by day,

it's not fading even though we are far far away from each other.

I do appreciate every moment when I am with you.

I ♡ you, and I really do.

but, no matter how much i Love,
supply only from one side is never enough to maintain a relationship.

neglect - care - time = insecure

attention + pay a little more + understanding + communication = solution

commitments + heart = love.















will not say it out no matter how much i want...
=x

BABY's Birthday Celebration

Advance birthday celebration for my Baby Winnie,
as she will be away from town and go for a sweet escape with the BF on her actual birthday.
The initial plan is supposed to be a SURPRISE celebration for her,
thus Li-wei is busy sending out invitation text to the fellow friends regards on this plan on last week,
as we needed confirmation asap to proceed with the restaurant reservation.
Party turned out pretty GOOD actually, just that the so-called SURPRISE party was no longer surprise...

it was ruined in the LAST MINUTE due to mis-communication problem i would say. :)
there gone our hard work and effort,
but still, it's glad that everyone are able to make it to the dinner celebration.
it turns out another awesome night for all of us.
:D






















Baby, I hope you ENJOY.
I *L-O-V-E* YOU to the M-A-X!!!




p/s: babe, i hope everything is alright with you now. :( never knew this will happen.

I acted tough,

but I was just a coward pretending I wasn't interested.
And yet,that only increased the pain stabbing at my heart.

Ah, I see, so this must be what it's like to fall in love.


Credit to you, Hola. (you tau i tau, mereka tak tau)

everyone should sealed their lips by now and then,
am not going to say anymore,
of course, you (whoever) can continue the story if you want, as your wish.
:)
peace.

why can't people just leave me alone?
i just about to start my new life,
and this fellow come and disturb.


i mean, i know you are being nice to me,
but, i seriously thinks that it beyonds a friend's limit already lor.
it is a bit OVER & TOO MUCH for me.


hmm...i am not mean,
but, could you please leave me alone.
ngo mm zhong yi lei ahh...

Thanks and Bye

:)

yesh!
everything comes to an end...
it is like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y.
things had been dragging for so long...


from hope to heart broken,
from happiness to sadness,
from very best friend to a Hi-Bye friend.


those bitches was actually secretly laughing at me...
saying :"how pathetic that lady is...she is such a loser...and she deserves all these..."


THIS IS FUNNY.
and now i finally know that time does NOT matter.
although we have 5 years plus oh-so-called "special friendship",
still, i got defeated.
what a tragedy.


a sudden change cause a breakdown on me,
but,
since you wants it that way,
i will just follow and perfect it for you.


Thanks for the memories, appreciate.
Thanks for everything that you did...throughout the whole 5 years plus...
sincerely from my heart...THANK YOU!


but,
Guess it's time to say GoodBye!

bleeding

a big hole located exact on the middle of my heart,
and also surrounding by those small wounds and scratches


had a very deep fall,
everyone asking to move on,
to let go,
to forget,
to get rid of it.
it isn't easy thou.
i am stubborn, when i thinks that's the right thing to do,
i insists, no one can stop me then.


i know...
its time to let it go,
but i can't.
you all never know whats my exact feeling,
right now...in this moment...when this shit happened.


my heart is officially dead.
my mind is collapsing.
my smile is frozening.
expression is hidden beneath.

......

you broke my heart into pieces...


i don't blame...who to blame?
MYSELF.
i never realize, i am just being a fool...
fooling by myself.

i says to myself...
Please don't cry out, stop crying...
but, again the tears filmed my eyes.
in the end my tears was exhausted.

now i know,
my love to him never waved.
but every thing is just too-late now.

i shall keep myself in a wardrobe,
healing myself secretly.
my heart in pieces is messy everywhere,
i needs time to stick it back and lock it up.

-END-

:(

so what about holding my hand?
what about hugging me?
=/
am still waiting patiently,
and what you doing on me now?

promise between us

:D


last night, the birthday party...
you told me that,
"i don't need anyone else as i have got you enough. because you will always be with me no matter how!"
so...this is the promise u made on my birthday, for me of course.
i hope it is not an empty promise again,
i believe you won't fail me once again,
and it will be my greatest birthday present ever!

:D

:)

he told 'em he love me.
am happy...
i know im falling in trap blindly once again but WHO CAREs?
am waiting patiently...for him to come and hold my hands again.