depression kills...

Thanks Jason Bear,

but am not strong enough,
Goodbye.

it is always say easier than do.

do not make promise to others
when you have no confident to make it comes true.

Monday night

had a quick catch up with Rich last night
:)
we talked, we discussed and we gossiped.
he can be a real good listener,
as he is so different with the others,
he is LAME.


he once told me,
just take whatever peoples say as an advice,
but, the most important thing is to Follow your heart.


what you really wants,
what you really needs,
what you really want to do,
basically is all inside your heart already.

so,
why not just follow your heart?

:(

seems like i couldn't take it still...
:(

Merry Christmas

i actually don't like people greet me "Merry X'mas" instead of "Merry Christmas".
What is "Xmas" wei? I don't get it.
it suppose to be CHRISTMAS, it is Jesus Christ birthday.
stop greeting me by using "Xmas".


peoples seem do not understand what's the true meaning of Christmas.
Jesus was born on this special day,
as our lovely God Father sent his only child to the world,
to experience our normal human life, spread his gospel.
in order to save all of us, he actually sacrifice himself.
therefore,
Christmas always been a special event for me and my family.


i went to the Christmas eve mass last night,
and i can truly feel that everyone of us is feeling excited,
excited about Jesus Christ birthday but not Holiday,
everyone feel blessed and joy on this special day.
when all of us singing for the song, listening to the Gospel, during the preparation of gift,
i can felt that Jesus Christ was actually there, with us.


:)
Glad to have Jesus Christ in my heart all the time,
as he always shower me with all his love and peace.
- God Bless -

Thanks and Bye

:)

yesh!
everything comes to an end...
it is like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y.
things had been dragging for so long...


from hope to heart broken,
from happiness to sadness,
from very best friend to a Hi-Bye friend.


those bitches was actually secretly laughing at me...
saying :"how pathetic that lady is...she is such a loser...and she deserves all these..."


THIS IS FUNNY.
and now i finally know that time does NOT matter.
although we have 5 years plus oh-so-called "special friendship",
still, i got defeated.
what a tragedy.


a sudden change cause a breakdown on me,
but,
since you wants it that way,
i will just follow and perfect it for you.


Thanks for the memories, appreciate.
Thanks for everything that you did...throughout the whole 5 years plus...
sincerely from my heart...THANK YOU!


but,
Guess it's time to say GoodBye!

Festive season

December - festive season.
it should be Jolly Molly,
but i don't feel any.


are you feeling jolly?
i hope you does... :)


this Month is all about...Giving and Sharing.
i've been giving so much but i don't get to share the joyful and hapiness.


God thinks that i don't deserve any of it.