not to see,
not to hear,
not to care...is the best way to stop me thinking about it.
it is actually okay for me already,
yet...it still hurts.
fuck it and i dont think F.o.r.g.i.v.e is okay for me at this point of time.


disgusting.

Monday

Bon Jour~
8.51am am not sitting in front of my working desk.
Feeling so unwillingly to start my job,
But, there is a lot of pending jobs waiting me to accomplish.
Issues coming in everyday, it is endless.
Sick of doing the same task over and over again,
It actually frustrated me,
How I wish I could run away…

Erina was enjoying her holiday in Adelaide.
I am so wanted to be like her, at least get myself a long holiday to rest and relax.
Although I am heading to Japan soon, yet I feel unsecured.
I don’t think I can fully enjoy my trip as there is too much inside my mind.
I will have to face the same problem after the trip that is why I am feeling uncomfortable.
I don’t have a nice sleep on last night, yet I don’t know what keeps bothering me.

I had a great wine night with my ladies on Saturday night.
We shared everything…
From career > friendship > love > e.v.e.r.y.t.h.i.n.g
I am feeling pleasant to have all of them with me all the times.
At least, their support is kind of power to keep me moving on.

I know, I don’t really speak out everything that’s actually hidden inside my mind,
It is not that I don’t want to share,
just that I might need some times to digest it myself 1st,
then I will split everything out.
I am lucky that all of you is being so considerate all the time,
I truly appreciate it.

Till then,
Goodbye.

as what i said...
things tend to happen whenever, wherever so long the timing is right,
*POP* it happened. :)

Japan on the coming Thursday,
sweet escape for a week.
after Japan, will immediately off to Bangkok for a Seminar.
the schedule is pack and FYI, i only have 3.5 days left for my ANNUAL LEAVE.
FML.

GOD BLESS ME!!

Life is like a roller coaster and there is always ups and downs... we never know what's exactly waiting ahead for us.
I have been feeling so depress and stressed out for the past few weeks,
In simple word, mood swing like hell.
It is actually nothing big happen but those minors 1,
It accumulates and happened all in the same time, it leads to a burst.
Sometime, I would think what does lord want from me?

Learn from the lesson?
Being forgive and forget?
Being more strong and tough?

I take every incident as a lesson and keep it in mind, so that in future I won’t repeat the same mistake again.
Things happen tend to be good and bad, both side.
Whatever it is, we human always see the bad side but ignore the good side,
To be honest, I will only think on the bad and this is why am I been living my life so stressed out.
If I am willing to open my eye wider, bigger and try to witness myself, If I am able to open my ear and listen to everyone but not only the selected one,
Then, I might be able to understand the whole story hidden beneath or the reason why and it might leads to a change of my thought or perspective on it.

im confuse, do I know what I really want?
I thought I know myself well all this while,
In fact, I am not.
How hilarious it is.

:(
what a day...
i would say i have been awarded the most UNLUCKY person for this week.

what do you want from me?


*BIG SIGH*

hmm...
what can i say anymore.
3 accidents within a month .
My brother > me > my lil sis.
fucked up.


im glad that you're fine.
what done is done, as long as you're safe...
we love you much...

sometime,
i wish lord did hear my prayer.
i am not greedy,
i am not asking for everything.
but, can you please granted me this...the one i desire the most.
-sinking-