S: does F-O-R-E-V-E-R means FOR EVER?
H: In my dictionary, F-O-R-E-V-E-R means FOR EVER and I will take care of you FOREVER no matter what.


I used to hate promises because life is always being so UNPREDICTABLE.
BUT, he makes me believe on it, blindly.


for those awful memories,
the tears that flooded my bed sheet...


I was trying my best to buried it deep down and leaving it untouched forever.
I wish that i can forget bout the past,and everything.
but the memories are too beautiful to destroy it.

Whenever i decided to move on, something happened that holds me back.
But whenever i’m ready to commit and give us another chance to try,
he’ll just turn me off and ask me to wait.
the consequences for believing blindly & waiting like a silly is seeing him being happily together with the others.

there is a sentence where i truly agree with...
"Sometimes you might seem strong for keep holding on,but it really takes much more strength to just let it go and move on.I might sound agressive at times,looking tough and strong like nothing in this world worries me much..If i could lift it up,i could put it down."

understand, forgive and forget.

the end of 2009

31122009

am suppose this will be a great year for me,
at least, better than 2008
but, it doesn't.


both beginning and end of the year 2009 was ruined.
during the start, i forced myself to stand up,
as there is 10 more months to end 2009,
then,
a beautiful nightmare,
The beginning of Nov, i finally woke up from the dream.
flashing back the memories, laughing at myself.


no.
no one is wrong here.
but,
when you said you can't force everyone to accept,
in fact, you are FORCING ME to accept.


uhm...
things changed, it ain't simple as last time anymore.
no one can tell me what's so hard in it?
and i cannot see any also.
maybe my eye got problem, in fact, my eye really got problem
so, don't blame me, i got EXCUSE also.
:)



For Jason Bear,
although both of us got played,
yet, we have to be thankful that we are still survive,
its alright Bear Bear, you can lean on my shoulder.
i believe we will grow stronger.
:)
p/s: Lydia Tan, pls stop stalking on me...im not saying you.



To You, (you know who you are)
don't feel sorry to me,
and thanks for telling me the truth,
it may hurts, but it works.
i can finally wake myself up.
and you are not the one who should apology.


Goodbye 2009,
Goodbye the Hidden Secret...
Goodbye everyone...


:D

p/s: never ever find excuse to cover your LIEs, you are just lying to yourself. (Richard Low, 2009)

depression kills...

Thanks Jason Bear,

but am not strong enough,
Goodbye.

it is always say easier than do.

do not make promise to others
when you have no confident to make it comes true.

Monday night

had a quick catch up with Rich last night
:)
we talked, we discussed and we gossiped.
he can be a real good listener,
as he is so different with the others,
he is LAME.


he once told me,
just take whatever peoples say as an advice,
but, the most important thing is to Follow your heart.


what you really wants,
what you really needs,
what you really want to do,
basically is all inside your heart already.

so,
why not just follow your heart?

:(

seems like i couldn't take it still...
:(

Merry Christmas

i actually don't like people greet me "Merry X'mas" instead of "Merry Christmas".
What is "Xmas" wei? I don't get it.
it suppose to be CHRISTMAS, it is Jesus Christ birthday.
stop greeting me by using "Xmas".


peoples seem do not understand what's the true meaning of Christmas.
Jesus was born on this special day,
as our lovely God Father sent his only child to the world,
to experience our normal human life, spread his gospel.
in order to save all of us, he actually sacrifice himself.
therefore,
Christmas always been a special event for me and my family.


i went to the Christmas eve mass last night,
and i can truly feel that everyone of us is feeling excited,
excited about Jesus Christ birthday but not Holiday,
everyone feel blessed and joy on this special day.
when all of us singing for the song, listening to the Gospel, during the preparation of gift,
i can felt that Jesus Christ was actually there, with us.


:)
Glad to have Jesus Christ in my heart all the time,
as he always shower me with all his love and peace.
- God Bless -

Thanks and Bye

:)

yesh!
everything comes to an end...
it is like F-I-N-A-L-L-Y.
things had been dragging for so long...


from hope to heart broken,
from happiness to sadness,
from very best friend to a Hi-Bye friend.


those bitches was actually secretly laughing at me...
saying :"how pathetic that lady is...she is such a loser...and she deserves all these..."


THIS IS FUNNY.
and now i finally know that time does NOT matter.
although we have 5 years plus oh-so-called "special friendship",
still, i got defeated.
what a tragedy.


a sudden change cause a breakdown on me,
but,
since you wants it that way,
i will just follow and perfect it for you.


Thanks for the memories, appreciate.
Thanks for everything that you did...throughout the whole 5 years plus...
sincerely from my heart...THANK YOU!


but,
Guess it's time to say GoodBye!

Festive season

December - festive season.
it should be Jolly Molly,
but i don't feel any.


are you feeling jolly?
i hope you does... :)


this Month is all about...Giving and Sharing.
i've been giving so much but i don't get to share the joyful and hapiness.


God thinks that i don't deserve any of it.

bleeding

a big hole located exact on the middle of my heart,
and also surrounding by those small wounds and scratches


had a very deep fall,
everyone asking to move on,
to let go,
to forget,
to get rid of it.
it isn't easy thou.
i am stubborn, when i thinks that's the right thing to do,
i insists, no one can stop me then.


i know...
its time to let it go,
but i can't.
you all never know whats my exact feeling,
right now...in this moment...when this shit happened.


my heart is officially dead.
my mind is collapsing.
my smile is frozening.
expression is hidden beneath.

:(

im feeling so hard...

:(

tears nearly fall out...
but it didn't,
because you do not worth for it.

wound

you never know how much i love you...
just like you never know how big is the wound...
:(

but, i believe One Day,
i will definitely find someone that is way BETTER than you.

collapse

im actually having a hard time now.
i have be as natural as i can during the day time,
and i can only remove my poker face during the bed time.
when im hiding myself inside my blanket,
sob-ing quietly.

last night was a no-sleep night
whole body feeling hot and itchy,
thanks to the cat's flea...
now my whole body was full with the red big and itchy spots
dang!


i seriously think that i should let it go and move on,
but, mentally im not willing to do so.
i felt so heart broken and most of it - disappointment.


i experienced this once during the beginning of this year,
when he told me that we most probably will get back together,
when he told me that he still love me,
when he is giving me so much hope...
in the end, he choose to gave up on me and go to her.


i take some times to stand up again,
face him again.
he actually broke up with her before he went back to Adelaide.
And we seems like back to the same old time.
he take care of me, concern about me,
everyone thinks that we will be together, just time matter.


he told me he wont leave me unattended no matter what.
he told me :"you've got me, that's enough".
there is so much things...yet i remembered every single of it.


i kept all these inside my heart,
i kept it nicely and make sure i don't miss any of it,
im waiting patiently,
waiting for the perfect timing to arrive and we will hold our hands tight and walk for the rest of our life.


anyway,
i never expect for 2nd disappointment to hit on me.
again, my heart broke into pieces...
it is messy everywhere and i don't think it can be puzzle it back.
he said sorry...for giving me hope...
he is now actually having crushed on another HER
and he don't want to drag me anymore,
so he GAVE UP on me, once again.
he said he don't want to be unfair to me by treating me as a BACKUP.
he said he is actually taking a risk as well
its either he can get HER or losing both of us.


my tears flooding out when i reading on the text,
i felt like there is millions of needles stabbing on my heart and tearing it into pieces.
i couldn't stand it anymore.
i hardly stand up once again to believe we are meant to be together,
again, you pull me down.
this time, im falling even harder and hurt.
i don't know why are you treating me so mean.
why are you giving up on me so easily when there is another pops out.


when there is no one,
you call, you text, you care...
you needs me to fill up most of your times when there is NO ONE.
and now,
you don't even bother anymore by just sending a bull shit text to me.
if i don't ever ask you in the 1st place,
i think you will just keep quiet...


im telling you,
this time, im so gonna collapse...
i couldnt stand it anymore and i wont want to stand up anymore.
there is always hope but it is not with me.
do not blame me for being pessimism，
it is because you hurt me 2 times in a row.
thanks for your lovely lessons~

tears

i know the limit of myself...
i know i couldn't stand it anymore...
i am collapsing...

relief

i felt much more better after my confession to the father and my holy lord.
I've got sins from the beginning of the year until as at today,
and now im finally sin-free.
been waiting for this moment for so long.


in this world,
you contribute more doesn't mean that you will get back the equal return.
in fact, sometime you don't even get anything back.
once you used to be the contributor,
the taker will just start acted like "take things for granted".


thus, being a contributor,
you must always bear in mind that it is either you take it or leave it kind of thing,
never ever expect return from the taker.
if there is, CONGRATULATION!
if not at all, come back and try again next time.
:)

Let go, Please.

......

you broke my heart into pieces...


i don't blame...who to blame?
MYSELF.
i never realize, i am just being a fool...
fooling by myself.

i says to myself...
Please don't cry out, stop crying...
but, again the tears filmed my eyes.
in the end my tears was exhausted.

now i know,
my love to him never waved.
but every thing is just too-late now.

i shall keep myself in a wardrobe,
healing myself secretly.
my heart in pieces is messy everywhere,
i needs time to stick it back and lock it up.

-END-

fool

i try my best to keep sadness away from me,
but it seems like :( following me everyday.




thanks for telling me and letting me know that im being a fool all this while.

off

this is the VERY LAST TIME,
i told myself.

long-time-no-see

finally we manage to spare some of our time to have a quick catch up with angel, bian and Lucas.
it's been so long we have not seen each other.
:)
setting the place at Sunway pyramid - Ole Ole Bali.
busy updating each other the latest news,
at the same time, GOSSIP again.
couldn't wait for Eddy to reach as i gotta leave early to Poppy.
but i guess there will still be another chance for us to meet up yea!


















before this, we actually have another date with angel and ievon on last week.
as angel just came back from UK thus we plan for a night out to meet up with her.
again, it is at Sunway Pyramid AGAIN- Kim Gary.
surprisingly Jack came too.

of course lar, its about to meet up with angel wei!
definitely he will show up 1. =p


having great time with all of them after a long-time-no-see period.
:)

Definition for "Friend" doesn't mean that we MUST hang out everyday but put each other in heart every moment.
PEACE

_|_

feeling so shitty.

:(

so what about holding my hand?
what about hugging me?
=/
am still waiting patiently,
and what you doing on me now?

daddy's little girl

i used to be my daddy's little girl
not until i left to Aus and study...
for the one and a half year,
although i don't have my daddy with me
still, i have got my friends with me to take care of me.
i am appreciate and being thankful all the time as i have got so much in my life.
i always reminds myself how lucky i am...
that's why i never compare and compete with the others.

after i graduated and back to my land
i am my daddy's little girl again.
when i got my 1st job which required me to travel down to KL everyday,
daddy is the one who fetched me to KTM everyday in the early morning + free breakfast
for a month...
until i got sick of KTM i decided to drive there...
the 1st day i drove myself down to kl...he called and make sure i reached KL safely
now i got transferred to PJ Asia Jaya...
i am not so sure about the route there...
the day before, he purposely drove and taught me the way to my office
he wants to make sure i know the way...

you see,
i am always my daddy's little girl...
and i love being his little girl...

:(

now i realise...
there is 7 days in a week
and 5 out of 7 days...
i am not feeling happy...
anyone tell me why?

sigh

things got jumbled up everywhere,
and it is not in the order,
it takes me some time to digest and absorb everything.
i think this is all about disappointment

crapalogy

sometime, something, someone...
just makes me feel so irritating.
but, again...
how people behave is totally none of my business.
im not their parents nor whoever that have the right to control how should they behave in the way that i like.
this is THEIR freedom on choosing how they wannabe.


am i judging? Yes! i did.
but i don't think the people do understand me as well.
aren't the people judge on me as well ?
lol
whatever the people says...as if i care LAR!
anyway people,
IGNORE me.
PEACE.

thought

1:07am the time that i spare myself free.
been going out so often recently due to overload events.
money keep going out non-stop. :'(
have to start saving from next month onward
gotta meet my budget at least.

been thinking so much lately
from work to friendship to others.
there is so much to think of
but i tell myself that nothing to be worried.
everything has been arranged by GOD
he wants you to be in that way, you just have to follow
without any question and doubt,
i think i still have lots to learn.

things seem to change rapidly
i can't fully absorb everything into my mind.
i try my best to slow the things down and solve it out
but it doesn't work, at all.
again, make me emo momo.

i think i don't understand anymore
the problem arise from both side
i admit i don't do it well for playing my part,
but at the same time, you guys too.
i don't blame, i learnt to accept and ignore.
if things is gonna to happen there is no point to stop, i tell myself.

friend

friend tends to come and go.
if you think we're in the same channel having the same tune,
we will hang out happily ever then.


if it is another way round,
might as well choose not to contact anymore.
how cruel is it?
the most horrify thing is...
when there is nothing seems to happen between the friendship,
but,
the someone choose to leave silently without letting u know
and keep u uninformed.


what is the truth?
what is really hidden beneath?
i don't know.
would you like to tell me?

Jenni Ku

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BABY JENN
:)


enjoy ya big day to the max!
drink drank drunk BUT no puke kay!
although we are far apart from each other,
but still our heart always link together no matter what!

LOVE YOU!!!

promise between us

:D


last night, the birthday party...
you told me that,
"i don't need anyone else as i have got you enough. because you will always be with me no matter how!"
so...this is the promise u made on my birthday, for me of course.
i hope it is not an empty promise again,
i believe you won't fail me once again,
and it will be my greatest birthday present ever!

Octopus * October

OMG!
it is October already.
time flies yet we don't have enough time to complete our stuff, always.
due to overload events and activities.
My birthday, bro and the gf and my sister birthday~
all the libra babies staying under the same roof
*headache*


additional point,
Randy and Jason was back to the town!
which means partays will be keep going on non-stop.
it causes my wallet a bomb.
i mean, REAL BOMB + BIG HOLE.
=(
crying silently & signing off ...

290909

290909

It's my DAY~

:D

Cotton On

Finally,
Cotton On Group hit to the town yo!
i was randomly walking around pavillion on last 3 weeks
and i found out that Springfield in Pavillion "zap lap" already
and it changed to Cotton On.
and and and...
it is just right beside Forever 21
how nice is it.
:D


I suppose this is the 1st Cotton On outlet in Malaysia but not in Aussie
There are tons of Cotton On outlet floating all over the Aussie land.
and im seriously crazy in love in their Cotton On body (lingerie) and Rubi (shoe)
variety of choice yet with reasonable price.
*highly recommended*


how i wish they will bring in Supre, Valley Girl, Forever New and Jayjay in the future
hee hee hee... :)

=/

:D
Raya break = long weekends
gotta stuck at home and recharge.
have to give myself a good rest.
hee hee hee..i prefer old folk's life.


anyway,
suppose off work at 4:45pm today
but due to the stupid KTM, AGAIN!
i only manage to reached home at bloody 8pm.
always got technical problem or delay.
wtf!
in the end, gotta take LRT home instead of wasting my time to wait for the bloody KTM to be fix!


:(
KTM, lei hou yeh.

: (

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

moku with spec

my eye got swollen last 2 days
i don't know whats the problem.
it only happened on my left eye.
it is pain and i can feel the heat burning inside my eye.
:(
damn!
anyway, feel better now.
wearing spec and being noob for 3 days.
i think i better go and consult the doctor.


w.


off and ciao!

good night

i gotta feeling...
am so tired...
not mentally but physically.
can you understand?
-end-

do we human really know how to appreciate?
sometime when we think that we are living our life fullest
in fact, it is not.
i thought i can handle my life well
but it seems to be wrong.
i wish i could escape from all these.
tension.

get well soon.
:*(
* pray super ultra hard *

sorry

somehow he told me
he don't know me anymore.
i change OR you the one has change? OR the world is changing?
i don't know.
whenever you question me,
i feel so stress out.
because i don't even know the answer,
how should i answer you then?
nothing to blame on,
i just have to bear with it.
i am not good in express my feeling
but i can write.

sorry.

things happened with reason
it depends on how you want it to happen.
it is all under-control by us.
you determine the ending,
so, bear the consequences.


sometimes, i just dont understand.
but, isnt it LIFE?
we just cant manage to find out every answer that we wanted to know.
we cannot ensure everything in our life to be perfect.
CHANGES can always easily ruin our plans, isnt it?


sometime,
i hope you do understand my feeling,
i hope i understand yours as well, perhaps?
nothing will be too late, it is all about timing.

craps.

give me reason to prove me wrong.

Bali

im back from my Bali trip
sunshine, white sand and deep blue sea.
:)
im enjoying the times with my ladies
good food, nice view, and best pals.
everything is GOOD.
despite the taxi fares is slightly expensive
eff you taxi driver~
=p

i love parasailing

Malay Land

im landed on Malay land
im back to my home, finally.

hang over throughout the whole journey back from Adl to KL.
am so wanna puke.
luckily, can still manage to sleep
so it is not that bad afterall.
thanks to Red Square


SAY NO TO ALCOHOL


oh yea!
still, have to thanks "you" to carry me back home.
LOL.
all the way from red Square to Gray street.
i know you a bit gone case also.


spent the whole night to unpack my luggage.
so many clothes and stuff


anyway,
home sweet home.
it's time to hunt for job after my Bali trip with my babies.
:)
peace.

fed up

am so not me
you aint you, too.


i have got no strength to stand anymore
can i choose to give up?
you tell me.

GoodBye

yeap yeap...
just got back from Melbourne yesterday
am so so tiring...

woke up early morning today to attend my Convo
:)
yay! im done with my Bachelor of Commerce.
heading back to home coming sunday.

Finally, its time to say GOODBYE~

so what

im LOST.
but,
so what?

:D

:)

im done with my 3 years degree
im a commerce degree holder now.


and,
what's next?

who wana hire me?

say Goodbye

now i realize I've been here for 1 and 1/2 year
time passes so fast
seem like everyone is gotta be separate soon.


Valerie - the one who leaving tonight.
we sent her off just now.
She is going to Melbourne .
transfer to one of the Uni in Melbourne.
I would say she is very daring as she is going to another State which she is not familiar with.
Best of luck to you, Valerie.
Go and pursue your dream.
:)


Cindy is the first one who leaved us
She went to Melbourne for internship.

Jason Bear might going back to Malaysia for good as well.
he will be leaving at the 12th July.


am going back to Malaysia real soon as well
9th August.
1 month plus.
i feel so wanted to go home at first,
but, not now.
am already stay here for quite some times
am started to get used to the environment here
am in love with this peaceful and silent city.
:(

everyone is leaving.

Dramatic

as i said
Adelaide-the city full of excitement.
LOL

life is so upredictable.
:)

party hard.

Randy Wong birthday
so...hit the club AGAIN.
:)
blast night!
not to mention there is 1 drunkard and few hypies.

damn you PR!

cracking my head
getting frustrated on the final assignment.
duh, PR is just not my cup of tea.

:(

Didi

got to know that winnie's lil doggie has passed away
on tuesday, evening around 7+pm.
kidney problem i think.
i can truly understand her feeling.
:(
baby, i really feels so sorry to you.
im always hate that im not there with you whenever you need me.
bebe still love you.
you can come visit bebe anytime you want.
stay tough.

Rest in Peace Didi.

inane

my brain is currently not functioning.


things just ain't go right.
i need some directions.

inane

...

noob told me that they are going JB this weekend
they gotta attend my cousin brother wedding dinner.
hmm...
oh well.
nothing to be surprise as he is big enough to handle his problem by himself.
no matter is how,
he should bear the consequences and responsibility.
:)
congratz anyway!

surprise presentation

was randomly checking my UniSA email last night.
all of sudden i received an email from my PR tutor
saying that there is an oral presentation for us on today.
i was like "wtf?".

we all knew there is an oral presentation but we didn't know is on today.
faster grab my assignment2 out and read through the points.
to be honest, i didn't prepare much for it.
just jot down some main points and recommendations into a paper.

my presentation suppose to be at 12:27pm today
i know the timing is a bit weird right?
haha..because our presentation is One on One with the tutor and it is 5 minutes ONLY.
im not good in communicate with people lah...
dont ask me why. it is very-the-obvious ma hor?

anyway,
the presentation wasn't that bad.
my performance and tutor's reaction was totally beyond my expectation.
good enough to cheer my day!


p/s: 1 more assignment and 1 more paper then im DONE.

bebe 21st.

oh my effin god.
today is my lovely baby dog birthday.
oh well...
he is our precious so don't feel us insane to throw him a birthday party.
: )
i suppose the party organiser would be Qoo and her baby.
how i hope i can join the party as well but too bad.
i missed twice already.
:*(
anyway, i can't wait to see the special cupcakes for my dog.
again, Happy 21st Birthday to Bebe.
muacks******

horror sunday

horror movie marathon from friday night to saturday night.
from hongkong haunted show "Guai tam" to "Exorcism of Emily Rose".
i personally don't like horror movie.
every time after i watch i have to switch on the light and sleep.
those scenes keep on popped out in my brain.
no more horror show / movie to me.
i seriously cannot absorb it.

went to church this morning and i was late.
thanks to horror night...
not peace after all...


back to study mode.

NO Tobacco Day

oh...
i love this campaign so much

Vivo Barca

VIVO BARCA

Barcelona wins Champions League

eat shit MAN U...

fuhh

seem like things getting complicated
problems occur non-stop everyday.

when we thought we just settle down one,
then,
there is another one waiting for us at the corner.
i could not figure out WHY.

and i realise everyone is in a procrastinating mood.
why can't they just make thing done fast.
:(
nothing more to say.

mouth is the best weapon to attack someone.

insomnia

suppose bed around 2:30am
ended up im still awake at 5am.
:(
emo!

plans

swine flu hits Adelaide.
currently 1 confirmed case only
but who knows?
Adelaide is so effin small, okay?
* finger cross *

im counting down for my holiday
i wanna go Gold Coast.
My ladies going Bali at august.
im still thinking whether i should join or not.
plus, it's been so long i never go trip with them already.
and i KNOW Bali is a PARADISE.. lol



still,
Gold Coast will be my main target right now.
After that, family fly over and we will fly to Melbourne and Sydney.
As for Bali,
set it aside 1st...
PEACE~

butt

what comes around goes around?

take to me, not?
you wouldn't know because i don't know as well.

leave or stay?
you tell me.

=x

i think im emo

doing my Public Relations assignment
and i stuck in the half way.
have no idea how to continue...

research research and research
Swine Flu - a hot topic as everyone talking about this
i have lotsa information about it
but i don't know how to link it with my PR theory and perspective.

i hate PR.
i don't know why should i take this subject.

damn the UniSA policy
damn the BUGE subject.

im stuck.
:(

:)

relieved.

big smile on my face.
:)

pray hard

lord,
hear my prayer, please.



how i wish i was there with you and take care of you.
you are the best thing that i ever had in my life.
i can't afford losing you.
you are my precious, my everything.

when we're on the phone
you sound so weak and sometime i could not even hear you.
you told me you cant even walk now due to your leg's pain,
but my heart feel even pain when i heard about this.

why are you insist not to consult a doctor?
i don't want you get quarantine and stuck at the airport.
how are you going to stay without anyone else beside you?

how i wish i could fly over to youu now and be with you
at least i can let you know,
you're not alone.
you've got me, Qoo and everyone with you.
help you to get rid of it.

what i can do is hope for the best.
i love you, my man.
i wanna see you badly and i miss you.
:(

right round

you spin my head right round right round...
when you go down, when you go down down


went to red square on the sat night. *oh-finally*
we skip club for almost 5 weeks.
it is a record for the unit 13 - playboy mansion.

long queue as usual, we've been line up for 40 minutes.
luckily the weather is just nice for club.
no winter clothing nor jacket needed to cover our body.

the boys was boozing at the bar
non-stop drinking and dancing.
obviously, all of us was hype enough.

3 shots of tequila and a bottle of Vodka Cruiser Guava.
this is the 1st time club without cowboy, 151 and ABC.
see...im so well-behaved...


Aris- the melbourne guy is in the house.
he was super TIPSY i would say
non-stop kissing the boys just because his girl kissing me non-stop,
oh well...your girl like me, okay?

home around 6am.
tired enough i would say.
:)
PEACE.

: (

:(
ma parents off to europe.
they're now at portugal.
and my dad was sick.
a lil bit fever + cough.
i hope everything will be fine to him.
he told me he cannot stand for the local weather.
temperature around 10plus (same as adelaide now.)
but normally he dont feel cold that easily.
thanks to the sick it makes his body damn weak.

lord,
hear my prayer,
i would like to pray for my parents.
to stay strong and healthy.

peace with them.

favourite chiq's 21st

Happy Birthday to my Favourite lady.
: )

it is your big day,
but im not there to celebrate with you.
i hope you do have a great time with them.
i owe you one and i will pay you back when i back to Malaysia.

21st.
a memorable day i suppose.
appreciate and enjoy to the max.

remember,
am always here for you.
nothing gonna change my love for you. lol
i love you my lady.

phantom waiting for me

Parents off to Europe for 2 weeks plus.
omg!
im going out for Phantom Of The Opera show at 7pm.
omg!
it is 6pm now and i haven't shower yet.
omg!
audit assignment in progress...70% done.
omg!
insomnia and period.
omg!



crapz.
ignore me.
i gotta shower and get ready for the show.


ciao & peace!

11th of May 2009

oh my GOD...
exam timetable is OUT.
my Audit exam on 25th of June 2009, 9am.

start at 25th, end at 25th too.
have to sit for 1 paper only for this final sem.
another subject is more on assignment based.
only have 1 month plus left to my final.

final sem.
hope that everything goes well.


stress-ness starting to hit on me.
non-stop thinking about exam..
and so,
insomnia wanna join in too.
i forced myself to bed at 1am
but end up sleep around 4-5am.

it is so no-good.
whenever the exam date release
and when it getting closer each day,
i started to worried and could not sleep well.


FML home sick.

vomit = bitch

i vomit twice in the early morning today.
and i don't know why.
heavy head and im in dizzy mode for the whole day.

it's saturday, yet nothing special.
went Marion just now and thought of catching a movie
but due to my not-so-well condition i choose to gave up on it.
walked around and bought my shampoo and headed back home.


i think i should take a nap.
yawn.
good night and good day.
:)

pissed

seriously,
i think i gotta arrange time and do confession.

i know i should learn to be more tolerate
i know i should learn how to be more forgiven
i know i should learn how to let go of things
i know i should learn how to control my temper.

i admit my EQ is low
but throughout these years,
i learn to control a bit, maybe im still not good enough,
at least, i tried.


you are the one who said "end it, and don't want to give a damn on it anymore!"
but what is this?
what are you doing right now?


KARMA.
how you treated people you will definitely get back the same thing one day.


pissed / peace

Fall's

I dont like autumn and winter.
the temperature is so low yet windy.
gotta wrap ourselves and transform into dumpling shape
if not i will be freezing like hell.

the most sucky thing is...
it makes me lazy to get out from my room.
it is torture when i gotta wake up early to attend my morning class.


i still prefer Spring, after all.
:)

enough

there is no stopping point for me.
what can i do to get rid of this?

i have enough!

lost

when i started to pretend nothing
when i started to put a fake smile on my face
when i started refuse to talk


it is the time i don't know myself anymore.
im lost.

shut down

No matter what anyone could say,
this is the only place for me and i would never leave you.

sealed agreement

a promise between us.

fine

told myself not to take the words serious.
told myself you are big enough to solve your problem.
im sorry.
i do not mean to get myself involves.

rainy day

Here comes the month of MAY.
time flies i should say.
week by week, month by month.

it is raining cat and dog outside right now
plan to go out and have a walk at rundle mall
mother's day coming real soon.
next week i suppose.


i got lots of assignments due in MAY.
yet, im still procastinating.
i have no motivation to start any.
because im always in last minute work syndrome.

gotta enjoy my uni life to the max
sooner or later i gotta step into the working environment
and i don't have much spare time to party/hang out with my peeps.

Good day amd Peace.

im hungry

Attitude

A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E
i - myself seriously think that personal attitude is very important.
from personality to attitude, the way you speak and act.

you always claim that they do not treat you well,
but, do you ever question yourself how you treat them.

this world is cruel.
how you treated people and definitely they will treat you back the same way.
this is just like a circle.
what comes around goes around!

i believe that human don't born to be mean.
despite your self-telled story,
i think there must be another "stories" hidden inside.
no one know beside YOU.

therefore,
Don't ask for more if you don't deserve that much!
May the GOD bless you.

fullstop

im deaf and mute


dont talk to me
i wont listen to you


FULL STOP .

broken

支离破碎

谁能重新把我修补好？

=\

so indecision and weak,
guide me please!

smiley

a big smile on my face

: )

Good luck Qooki

endless

do you really know what you want?


i wish i know...
therefore,
i would not stuck in current situation.

e.n.d.l.e.s.s
&
l.i.f.e. s.u.x

procastinating

so many works haven't done yet I have limited time.


ton of assignments after the sem break
yet Im still procastinating here!


Lord,
please lead me to the right path.

Happy Easter

Happy Easter


went to church with J this morning
holy moly moki!
=)

Sem break for 2 weeks
might be going road trip with the bunch of them
i wish i could pay a visit to whispering wall...
wanna go port adelaide to see dolphy...
there's so many awesome places in Adelaide...


oops...
going to "hantam" and eat my easter eggs
peace!

today

11th of April

a date to remember
i would say.

headache

Good Friday

long long mass
big big cross
many many peoplesssss


end up nothing but a headache.

:'(

why do all good things come to an end?

=/

S: hey, are you from malaysia?
M: oh..Yea!
S: oh, can you speak mandarin then?
M: yea..of course!
S: Which part of Malaysia are you? im from JB
M: oh...JB! im from KL
S: typical kl girl ya!
M: (eff you) oh..haha...yea...
S: you looks cute and sweet
M: (temper losing fast) haha...thanks...i gtg...nice to meet u anyway.


Valerie and cindy quickly pull me and walk off quietly.


wut the heck man!
what a conversation!
everyone know i dont like to talk...
especially with an unknown...
i think im kind enough to not show him my lansi face.
peace!